Today I woke up a little bummed.
You see, I need a new laptop. That's not 100% accurate. I have a Chromebook and it works absolutely fine, but I hate having to be connected to the internet for it. If I lose access, then I'm stuck.
Well, that's not completely accurate either. There are these items known as pen and paper that I could very easily use to write. But I digress.
Back to the laptop issue.
I found a Macbook Pro on sale that I could finance for the next 18 months. Calculating it out, I would be paying $77.00 per month on said laptop. That's completely doable.
Then I asked myself, "What am I doing?"
I'm on a spending fast this year. I'm working to get out of debt. Buying this laptop is not going to help me get out of debt faster. It's just going to add to it. However, I had rationalized in my mind why getting it was such a good idea. It would assist with my writing, I could launch a podcast easier, I could write when the internet was down (instead of using archaic pen and paper).
But the bottom line was still the same. More debt.
Now I should have been patting myself on the back for making this decision, and yet I felt bummed. And then I felt guilty about being bummed.
I was bummed, because if I wasn't in debt to begin with (at almost age 50) then I would probably have the money to just buy the laptop without financing. If I wasn't in debt, I wouldn't be on this spending fast. And then I felt bummed for wanting this material item in the first place.
That's a lot of "bummed-outed-ness" (should I trademark that word?).
Then I had a cup of coffee, watched the sun start to rise, and listened to the birds chirping outside my window. I took a deep breath. I'm healthy and all my needs are met. I have great relationships and a day job that does more than pay the bills. It's helping me pay off debt. I enjoy writing and I'm working on an ebook that will eventually turn into a full-length one. I could easily walk away from all the stuff and start over if I needed to.
"Most of us are just about as happy as we make up our minds to be." -Abraham Lincoln
Our 16th President hit the nail on the head.
You see, it's not about the stuff in our lives. It's not about the people in our lives. Happiness comes from within. The stuff and the people complement who we already are. We are not defined by the job we have, the size of the house we own, or the car we drive. Although there are a lot of people out there who do define us by those things, I challenge you to ignore those voices and live by your own definition of happiness.
Sometimes it's tough to find a starting point, especially when we're in the middle of "bummed-outed-ness". So, here are some jumping off points:
What do you enjoy most about who you are?
What positive vibes do you bring to the world?
What brings a smile to your face?
What experiences bring you the most happiness?
If you left everything behind to begin somewhere new, what would you need to do to prepare yourself with confidence and happiness?
Take some time to answer these questions. Find a quiet place to just sit and be with yourself. You are the best person to spend your time with, so start doing some of that today.
I'm a lover of life, an eternal optimist, and I have an intense desire to add value through simple living and positive vibes.