Sometimes I overthink things.
Let me retract that. Many times I overthink things. And then I get mad at myself for doing it. I spend so much time thinking about what I want to do instead of actually doing it.
I'm really good at planning things out. I have something mapped out in my head and I might actually write it down. Then there's the follow-through, the actual work. That's where I get stuck.
Much of it is that I get in my own way. I think a lot of us do that. In fact, I made a confession to my husband recently about my writing. I told him I think what's holding me back is that I fear that it's not going to work. So, if I just do all this thinking and planning, but I don't put the work into it, then I can't actually fail.
When we take a risk, more than likely we are going to fail.
And that scares me.
You see, I'm the queen of calculated risks. It's easy for me to jump into something where I'm pretty confident I'm going to succeed. Or, I don't even mind jumping into something I don't know very well but there is low risk. Like, even when I have failed at it, it's been no big deal. No one really knew about it anyway. I could easily pick myself up, dust myself off, look around and know that no one was looking anyway. So, I could just move on easily.
But now I'm at a crossroad.
My husband finally asked me yesterday on our way to Omaha, "What's your end game with your writing and consulting? Where do you see this in 3-5 years?"
At first I couldn't say anything. My thoughts swirled around in my head and I felt panicky. Then the words spilled out and I couldn't stop them. As I talked to him about my plans to make writing and consulting my full-time gig, I realized that I really had thought this through. I had an actual plan for making a go of it. It was tangible and I had timelines for everything.
It is time for the real work to begin. The planning is in a good place, but now the action must follow. I kind of feel like I'm standing at the edge of the Grand Canyon. It's just so immense and the expanse is breathtaking. It goes seemingly on forever and the possibilities are endless.
But then I have this little voice in the back of my head that says, "Yeah, but if you have one wrong misstep, that's going to be one hell of a fall. There's no coming back from something that epic."
Really, though? Won't I regret it if I don't take the risk at all?
Pretty much, yeah. So, I'm putting myself out there. Even though I can't fully prepare myself for all the rejection I'm going to experience, it has already happened. I submitted a proposal to continue writing a column for three newspapers I had contributed to free for two years. They turned it down, and I no longer write for them. I've finally realized that I'm pretty damn good at this whole writing thing, I love it, and I'm going to get paid for it.
I recently applied for a job that I only partially have the credentials for, and I'm long shot, but I did it anyway. I applied for a program at Medium that is an even bigger long shot, but I don't care. I did it anyway.
Yeah, pretty sure there are going to be a lot of fails along the way, but I also know there's going to be a payoff by working at it, persevering, and taking risks.
And, so I'm going to take a risk here and ask you to do something for me. I'm building an email subscriber list for Get To It called GTI Wednesday. It's a middle of the week pick me up. It takes maybe five minutes out of your day to read with quick hitters to add positive vibes to your day and the rest of the week. My goal is to get to 100 subscribers by May 1. Right now I'm at 25.
The ask is for you to subscribe. Go to Get To It, scroll down to the bottom of the homepage, and get on the list.
And, if you don't think it's for you or you subscribe to several newsletters already, that's cool. Could I then ask you to forward the information to someone you think could greatly use a positive boost during the week?
Okay, it's time for me to get moving to the next action on my list.
I'm a lover of life, an eternal optimist, and I have an intense desire to add value through simple living and positive vibes.