I have been super frustrated with my new job.
While I've been there only a little over a month, I hate the extreme highs and lows I've been feeling. And even though I try to laugh when I say this, "What fresh new hell will greet me today?", I'm actually fairly serious and this makes me sad.
Because that's not who I am.
And it's not about the work environment. I work in a great environment with incredibly helpful and kind colleagues. There's more stress than I realized there would be and more learning curves than I expected.
But as with a lot of things in life, when one thing after another seemingly happens, the snowball effect comes into play and suddenly the ills spill over into other facets of one's life. At least that's what it has happened to me.
I don't remember the last time I worked out or even went for a walk after work. It has been close to two weeks since I cooked a meal. I've worn my hair in a ponytail more times than I care to admit. Although I'm writing, it has been sporadic.
I've laughed a lot less.
And I realized that today, because for the first time in awhile I laughed at work. Not just a polite giggle, but an actual laugh.
It's exactly what I needed.
It opened the flood gates of what I've been missing in my work environment. I love to laugh and have a good time, because that's what alleviates the stress of the job, and today I got it.
I left work in a good mood.
And you know the best part?
I'm looking forward to going back tomorrow.
I'm a lover of life, an eternal optimist, and I have an intense desire to add value through simple living and positive vibes.