Writing is hard.
Well, not hard exactly.
I love writing. I love how it feels to get words down on the page or in a blog post. That's not the problem.
Consistency is the issue.
Sometimes I get overwhelmed. There's so much to do that I don't know where to start. It would be awesome if the only thing I needed to do was write and then everything else would fall into place.
By everything I mean the marketing of my writing through social media, submissions to publications, finishing the manuscript for my book, and producing my weekly newsletter.
I think every creative goes through this tug-o-war of working on our craft vs. getting our craft out there for the world to see. It becomes more of a battle when it's our 5-9 endeavor after our 9-5 job.
Last night I was lamenting to my husband that it's so crazy how there are 168 hours in a week. We work roughly 40-50 of them. While there are hours devoted to sleep, chores, exercise, and family/friend time, there are still plenty of hours to devote to my craft.
So, why am I not doing it?
Sometimes I wonder if my message of simple living through positive vibes is making a difference. I have yet to make a $100 from my writing, but I keep reminding myself that my message is getting exposure and if I keep at it then what I'm working for will eventually come to fruition.
"People don't buy what you do; they buy why you do it. And what you do simply proves what you believe." -Simon Sinek.
This quote tells me all I need to know.
I don't believe in myself. And if I don't believe in myself, then why would others believe in me?
That's a difficult pill to swallow. While it would be easy to pack it in and say I'm done, I'm choosing to dig deeper.
It doesn't mean that I need to post a piece of writing every day, but it does mean working on some aspect of my message daily.
"Working hard for something we don't care about is called stress. Working hard for something we love is called passion." -Simon Sinek
Even though I love my writing, I haven't been loving all parts of it and that is what has caused stress. It's a brutal cycle of writing consistently for awhile, falling off the bike, berating myself for failing, wallowing in self-pity, and then restarting with a plan of action.
It's time for me to hit the restart button.
I'm a lover of life, an eternal optimist, and I have an intense desire to add value through simple living and positive vibes.